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September 12, 2004
Inga’s Birthday Party (25th August)
This is Inga (and me :P)
This isn’t the best pic of Lydia
Nor is this, but it’s a good one of Charlotte
Had an interesting night last night. After school, I went to Inga’s Birthday Party (Wed 25th Aug). Everybody there was German except me, quite interesting to see it, although no the first time. Anyway, at the end of the night, I left, giving Charlotte a ride home, Inga reminded me about watching Kill Bill 2 this weekend, and made the comment that I’m very patient and passionate! (interesting choice of words, I have to say) I replied quietly that perhaps I’m too patient. Anyway, that got the discussion onto Lydia, (she was still at the party) which continued on the bike trip to Charlotte’s abode. We sat out the front of her place for about 15 minutes chatting about the situation before she went in. I guess none of it surprised me, how Lydia seems to be ‘here’ to ‘deal’ with stuff ‘alone.’ On top of that, she questioned whether ‘finding out’ with Lydia might mean a closing off, which would surely destroy the tension that seems to be present (aka the interesting stuff). I guess I realised that it’s true, and I don’t want to be rejected either. Probably why I haven’t made any moves forward or backward, because this is the impression I already ‘feel’ from Lydia.
The problematic point, however, is that because there IS ‘something’ there with Lydia, I feel less inclined/comfortable doing anything more than basic flirting with anyone else (and especially not in her presence!!!)
Posted by Dan at September 12, 2004 08:29 AM
Comments
"I don’t want to be rejected either. Probably why I haven’t made any moves forward or backward"
Another import observation of human nature not just your own.
We ALL hate rejection. But on the flip side, learning how to deal with it and learning about the rewards of carful venturing is even more an aphrodisiac - like the thrill of learning to jump between two cliff edges over a deep chasm.
Posted by: lozza at September 12, 2004 07:10 PM